Saturday, August 25, 2012

Bowden's Special Arrival

At 39 weeks I knew Bowden was gonna come I just didn't think it would be the way it was, but of course we know that in life things don't always go as planned! My due date was set for August 27th but my dr. said she could induce me on Tuesday August 21st, a week early, and I was all for it. Not sleeping anymore and just getting more and more anxious I caved in to the planned delivery but deep inside I still wanted to be surprised, I wanted my water to break (you know how you see in all the movies) I wanted this part of my life to be like the movies, I know kinda weird but the last 2 weeks I have been fantasying how my water would break and everywhere I would go I would think of my game plan in case my water broke. 
Well.....I got my wish only it wasn't as cool as I thought it was going to be...don't get me wrong I'm still glad it broke, I just didn't know what I was really in for.Well on Saturday (the Sat before my induction date) I didn't have any contractions which I thought was strange because up until this point I was having more and more contractions. It was crazy because a couple of my friends made comments to me that Bowden was going to come that day but I was like "I haven't had any contractions so I really can't see that happening." At about 2am that night I woke up, feeling wet, I thought I peed my pants because normally I have been waking up every 1 1/2-3 hrs having to pee and since we had a busy week I thought I must have been so tired I slept thru it (which when your pregnant and you have to pee, you can't sleep thru the pain lol) So I go to the bathroom, and it doesn't smell like pee and more liquid just keeps coming... right then  I thought my water must have broke. So I called my husband over, we started getting our stuff together, I took a quick shower and we were off to the hospital. Thinking my water broke and it was done, I was excited....that all changed until we got out of the car and more water starts coming down my pants I felt so gross, the good thing was there was no one at the hospital at 3 am. Also, I didn't know that there's about 2liters of amniotic fluid(water) that is released, so I was draining water for quite awhile! 

Here's me at the hospital, notice i'm wearing a black hoodie, I grabbed the wrong jacket I didn't notice until I got inside the hospital...I was's not like we rushed to the hospital 

The delivery didn't go as I thought it would, I ended up having an emergency C-Section. Everything was fine up until around 7 am, my cervix was dilated to a 5, and I had already got my epidural. But then Bowden's heart beat dropped so I was on oxygen for about and hour to get it back up, I was having some heavy bleeding but they said it was fine, and then my blood pressure dropped and as soon as that happened they called the dr and took me straight to the surgery room. I guess my placenta had erupted and detached. From that moment on everything happened so fast, Bowden was here within 10 minutes of all that. It was so fast that they tried to up my epidural that it didn't take affect all the way, so I could feel some of the surgery (it was painful, there were some tears) thankfully I had my amazing husband holding my hand through it all (I guess I was squeezing his hand so tight the nurse couldn't get the scrubs over his hands) 
As we are getting set up in the delivery room, I told Lance that I was happy that Bowden was going to be delivered on Sunday August 19th, because that is the anniversary of my mom's death and instead of it being a day of remembering my mom which can sometimes make me sad, I felt like God wanted to make it a joyful day and use Bowden. So Lance had the idea of adding my mom's name to Bowden's. I'm not for long names but when he said that I thought it was sweet and only right to honor my mom. So we did, we added Jaimie. 

Meet Bowden Jaimie Takeo Ainsworth

born on Sunday August 19th, 2012 at 8:59am weighing 5lbs, 15oz, and 19in long

the sunshine after the storm...was seeing my lil boy, my son, Bowden and yes I would do it all over again even the same way if I had to just for him! I love him and he has my heart more and more each new day! He is so sweet and I know God has such an amazing plan for his life, I know there is definitely favor over his life and he really is a warrior! On the way to the surgury room I was trying not to panic cuz I could tell the nurses were hiding their fear, I just kept praying and God was telling me that Bowden is a warrior and this is the day He wanted Bowden here.

39 Weeks (before Baby was born)

Weight: 140 I think
Food Cravings: Made sure I went to all my favorite spots this week since I knew it was my last week to go out for awhile.
Symptoms: lots of contractions, lack of sleep, little bit of swelling in my hands and feet, and anxiety
What's New: We now have a new member added to our family, Lil Bowden and my New Mommy gifts. My mother in law got me the Mother's heart necklace from James avery and my husband got me a bracelet that we are going to get engraved with Bowden's name and birthday.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Bowden's Nursery

Here we are at 38 weeks and I can finally say Bowden's Nursery is just about complete! A lil on the late side but I feel good about it! When planning the nursery I wanted something that had a part of both of us, Lance's manly, adventurous side and yet my soft but loving side. I'm really happy about his nursery, there's a lot of sentimental things that went into the making of this and I feel so blessed for all the friends and family that are a part of it!
First off, I mentioned this earlier but Lance built the crib with our friend J. He always said he wanted to build it and honestly I didn't know if it was going to happen because he didn't get to start on it til about a month ago, but it really only took him a weekend to do it! (There's a funny story to go with it that Ill have to share another time!)
 My grandma knitted that white blanket, it's so soft!

Next, is the bedding, my creative and talented Aunt wanted to make Bowden's bedding as a gift to him. She's pretty amazing, she can make anything from blankets to wedding dresses! I wanted something simple but with a touch of color and she did just that. This lumberjack print is part of the inspiration with the deer on it!
Oh and the bear we got when we found out we were having a boy! Bowden's first teddy!
We went with a wall plank wallpaper, that our friend Shawn helped Lance put up, they did such a good job!
The deer stag was a gift we got from Amazon, I painted it white and left the antlers the original color, I had seen a picture from pinterest that did something similar and really liked it!

 This rustic tin is a gift from my best friend Kara, that has prayers for Bowden in it that friends and family wrote to him

For my shower, all my hosts got me these paintings, that I thought would look perfect over the crib!

Bowden's first children's book was the sign in book at my shower, such a cute idea and I love it cuz it's about a bear!

There are so many lil things in this room that were gifts from people that I can't wait to share with Bowden!
We made this book on shutterfly (it was actually free, when you sign up with them they send you free deals) for Bowden, it has pictures of all of our family so we can show Bowden who loves him, since our families don't live by us.
There's just a couple more things that I want to get to complete his room: a lamp, a picture of a world map that I think Lance is gonna make, and I ordered this old children's book "Paul Bunyan" I remember watching it as a cartoon and since lumberjack is our theme, why not!
 Well there you have it, Bowden's rustic escape! We had a lot of fun with his nursery and now we are ready for him to take over it!

38 Weeks
WEIGHT: 138 (I have gained my 30lbs since my starting weight 108, so hopefully these next 2 weeks I don't gain more lol) no pics this week....
FOOD CRAVINGS: Haven't been that hungry, I think Bowden is taking up too much space!
SYMPTOMS: Just really uncomfortable, more braxton hicks contractions and starting to get really tired again (naps are back in the schedule)
WHAT'S NEW:  Still dialated to a 2, I'm hoping he comes within the next week but I have doubts! The nesting has begun, I make sure my hair is washed every day and the house is clean. Also anytime Lance and I are out somewhere we talk about what we would do if my water breaks! (You just never know)

Saturday, August 4, 2012

I did it! I'm a College Graduate!!!

Wohoo!!!!! I'm so uncontrollably excited you have no let me tell you! 8 years ago I made a decision to not focus on school and focus on ministry, which has been amazing and is what I needed to do! Well 2 years ago I made a 5 year goals list and I put school back on this list, to finish and get my bachelors, not sure how or where I was going to accomplish this I just knew it was something I wanted to do. Well last year I was blessed with an amazing opportunity... I was given a free scholarship to finish school and get my degree! So who wouldn't jump on that train. I decided to add that to my New Years Goals List and finish school by the end of the year. So I began to work.... at a rather slow pace and then I found out I was I decided to pick it up a lil faster. Then one weekend in January I went to a women's conference and a truly, amazing young girl, inspired me and challenged me with her testimony. I walked away that weekend with a new, New Years Goal.... to finish school before I have Bowden (who is due any day...August 27th is my due date) wow I must have been crazy but I wasn't...I was motivated and ready! I just told Bowden he can come early but only after I finish school!
Well friends, I'm here to tell you that I did it!!! I accomplished that goal, I am going to graduate with my bachelors degree in business administration!!!! So Bowden, you may grace us with your presence any day now!!!
I'm so thankful to my husband who has encouraged me along the way...especially the days I wanted to give up and the day I found out I still needed one more class! Also my sweet friend who shall remain nameless, you are truly an inspiration and I'm so grateful for your life's testimony that motivated me and challenged me!!(ok enough with the academy award speech)
Anything is Possible, and most days you have to be your own encourager, just don't give up and if you have a goal write it down. It's so neat because the 5 year goals list I made 2 years ago, half of those goals are coming to pass!!!

Oh ya I forgot to mention that my husband gave me a lil incentive, he said that if I finished school before Bowden comes he would buy me a watch!

Let's just say I have been celebrating all week!!!

Week 37

FOOD CRAVINGS: McDonalds cheeseburger and fries...a lot of sweets
SYMPTOMS: started having more braxton hicks contractions, some cramping, a random hiccup every morning I wake's pretty funny
WHAT'S NEW: I am dilated to a 2 so my Dr. says Bowden should come a lil early...that would be nice!