It's the little things

Well it's been an interesting month full of decision making, new changes, and just a lot of "newness" if that's a word. 

So I wanted to take a break for myself. I feel everyone needs to take those kinds of breaks in their life where you just relax and do... whatever is you want!

So for me something I enjoy doing and have since I was little, was sewing. My aunt is the most creative person I know when it comes to fabric, sewing,  quilting, pretty much anything crafty she knows how to do it.  

In fact she even made my sister's wedding dress!

When my sister and I were little girls she bought us a sewing machine and taught us everything we know.

Unfortunately my sewing machine is back home in California and these past months I have had the itch to sew something so my wonderful husband went out and bought me a sewing machine! Not only that but I told my Aunt about this crave and she sent me a box of fabric what more could I ask for! So here I go sorting through fabric I think I am going to make an apron..... 

The devil is a liar!

 I’m a 100% human but sometimes I wish I was a superhero and had my own special powers. So I’m going to vent for a little bit, don’t worry it’s not about a friend of mine but I’m pretty sure you know who I’m talking about. Let’s just call him for what he is: the enemy, the evil one, a thief, a piece of trash and really not worth venting about but like I said I’m only human.

I mean “Who does he think I am? A Fool! Please…. He is wasting his time I’m not as vulnerable and insecure as he thinks! He’s an idiot and all the other cuss words!”

Ok I'll stop there...

Let me just say if bad things start happening to you and you’re being attacked from left to right just know you’re in God’s will and to keep pushing through.

“Satan will do anything he can to scare you away from your God-ordained destiny.”- Beth Moore

I woke up today with my game face on and wanted to beat someone up you know the one I’m venting about. Normally if something bad were to happen to me I would stress, think anxiously about it, and take it out on the next innocent person standing in front of me but not today. And honestly that would have done me no good anyways so why not take it out on the devil! I woke up with a bad dream and instantly prayed against it! I was stressing about finances and decided to speak boldly God's rain of blessings down and seriously within minutes we were blessed financially! Now I’m not trying to sound all strong and righteous cuz most times I’m not but that’s why I have God in my life, He is truly my strength, and my provider! I believe its okay to get mad but for the right reasons and to not dwell on it. I just wanted to share that because sometimes when attacks come I don't always fight the right enemy but I choose to fight myself or others around me and that's not good. So all that to say is don't be like me and do that but know who you're fighting and that God is on your side!

“The thief comes to kill, steal, and destroy; but You Lord Jesus you have come that I may have life and have it to the full.” John 10:10

More Bitter than Sweet

I guess in the last post I didn’t boldly come out state that we are moving to Arizona but yes we are, we prayed about it and really feel this is the direction God is taking us. When we made our decision and the answer was the same on both ends Lance and I were very excited and still are. But it wasn’t until Sunday that it really began to sink in that we are leaving our family. When I say family I’m not talking about our immediate family, but our brothers and sisters; the ones that have walked with us, discipled us, led us, prayed for us, loved us, shared good times with…our friends. Since this whole decision we have been pretty discrete about talking about it to our family I guess because we are sad and though we know they would share in the excitement with us, it really is going to be hard and different.

There are few things in this life I do not like and one of them is goodbyes, I hate goodbyes I’m not very good at them, when my mom passed away I didn’t get to say goodbye and people would tell me that’s okay because you will see her in heaven. Well, I do know heaven will not be the next time I see our family I pray not anyways but for now I will just say see you later. I don’t wish to be all sad and gloomy in this blog but to bring encouragement.

So I will say this, that there are friends that come into our lives for seasons some long, some short and then there is family, family lasts forever. Therefore I have that to hold on to, they are family, they are valuable, and to make sure I keep them in my life!
Signed with tears

Revelations

In the past couple days I have experienced a few revelations and theres nothing better than grasping it, letting it sink in and then sharing it so it can help others now or in the future, so here I go:
Lately I have been wanting a simple Yes or No answer from God is this what we are suppose to do? YES or NO, should we go here? YES or NO unfortunately God doesn't work like that. Instead God showed me through feelings and through His eyes. We needed an answer to a job we interviewed for at a church and during service I began to feel what God felt about these people, I began to feel His love for them and His purpose for them. God didn't just want us to show up, Him leave and then He give us the answer after it was all done but He wanted to intimately walk with us through the whole process so we could feel what He thought about these people so we could see His vision for the church and in turn we would know if that's where we were suppose to be. I hope this makes sense sometimes it doesn't always come out the way it does in my heart. But I pray for anyone making tough decisions to really feel God through it all and to not just ask Him to guide you through it but to intimately walk right with you.

Moving Forward

Well our trip to Arizona was all that I hoped and wished it to be and definitely welcomed us with her heat. There were 4 things I was expecting coming back to Dallas and when you ask you shall receive. My pastor previously spoke on “Asking God for things” and I can definitely say I have put that into action. I asked God for friendships in the works and we met some incredible young men and women of God. Sadly, I have no pics because we were constantly on the go but we did meet a wonderful couple, Jeff and Tiffany. Tiffany is the Pastor’s daughter and Jeff is Tiff’s husband, they are very passionate about seeing young people grow in their relationship with God and not to mention are very musically talented! We thank you Jeff and Tiff for hanging out with us and of course for our In&Out treat!

2nd on my list, “a tan,” coming to Arizona that was one thing I knew I could get without even trying. I love the sun you can ask my husband every minute we were out in the sun I was basking in it!

Next on my asking list was a rejuvenated spirit, even though the primary purpose of this trip was not a vacation we always try to make the most of our time when it’s away from work and that’s what we did. We love hanging out with people and just being around encouraging uplifting people can definitely refresh your spirit!

Lastly I asked for peace in my heart, peace to know if this is God’s will of where we are suppose to be. It was in the middle of church, during worship to be exact, when people were coming up for prayer and I felt God’s touch on my heart and I instantly broke inside because I knew the answer. I knew that God has a plan bigger than us and even though it might be scary we will not be alone because it’s not us doing it but God working through us. I began to realize in order to move forward you have to be willing to go through change and that being comfortable should never be an acceptable state because then you’re not allowing God to truly use you but just doing what feels good. I heard a quote that says “When you are through changing, you are through,” and I know I’m not through and that my life is still in the beginning stages. We are not sure what exactly is next in this process and I can’t say I love the state of Arizona but hey “I’ll go anywhere as long as it’s forward and as long as God is the One leading me!”

Arizona here we come

Well in a few hours we will be headed to the airport where we will be visiting Arizona for the weekend, and quite honestly I’m a little nervous. As I have mentioned previously we are applying for other ministry jobs at churches. We have already had a couple phone and Skype interviews with other churches and this will be the first “in person” interview. I’m nervous because I don’t know what to expect and I guess that’s pretty normal but at the same time I’m excited and anxious because we are trusting God and that’s the best place to be. I truly believe everything happens for a reason! When we return home from this visit I hope to leave with new friendships in the works, peace in my heart, a tan, and just an overall rejuvenation in our spirit. Good bye dallas hello Phoenix! Be good Addy poo!

Joy!

Today I received a special surprise; my husband came to my work with Starbucks and “I love you” flowers. Can I just say that it truly made my day I was already feeling tired and not having the best day so it was perfect timing! Sometimes on days like these I would probably go out and treat myself but having someone else treat me was just as good. So I just wanted to share my joy because I realize that it not only affects me but others around me. And for those of you that are having a wonderful day to make sure you pass it on and for those who may be feeling blue or a little under the weather to go out and treat yourself!

“A Joy shared is a joy doubled”

Bugs Be Gone

This post is dedicated to all the insect haters out there: "We know they're real, your not alone!"
Let me start out by saying Lance and I have lived in Texas for over a year and a half now and in that time I have  experienced more traumatic bug incidents in this year in and a half than in my entire life. Now when it comes to bugs us girls can sometimes be a little exaggerative well I assure you in this case I'm not.
It all started on our move out to Texas I should have caught it then but it took me a lil longer to realize when people say "Everything is bigger in Texas" they mean it. In order as they happened

1. We stopped at a gas station in the middle of nowhere and as soon as I stepped out of the car these big beetles were roaming the ground so we ran inside thinking we would be safe...nope they were crawling around IN THE STORE! Crazy people! Who lets this happen? Lance had to pick me up and carry me out on his shoulder yes in front of everyone, I didn't care I was not going to walk past these creatures.
2. Now that we were all settled in we needed to sell the trailer that helped us get out there, while we were talking it over to the soon to be buyer, i felt pinching on my feet I look down I stepped in an ant hill they covered my legs, I was wearing jeans so I ran over to my friends apt took my jeans off and freaked out for awhile.
3. Lance and I wanted to get a soda we were not drinking soda at the time so we walked over to the vending machines by our pool house, once again felt lil things on my feet, look down tiny grey beetles were crawling around everywhere, I jumped on lance forget the soda we were out of there.
4. This incident happened numerous times I can't emphasize enough the word "Numerous", at night big black beetles hang outside on the grounds, because of this I told Lance we cannot go outside when the sun goes down.
5. The apt I lived in before I got married was infested with roaches
6. Our apt we got when we first married had spiders and worms... yes worms so weird, luckily my cat is the buganator and gets them sometimes.
7. I went to lunch with one of my friends now you would think eating inside a well know restaurant you would be safe from bugs, well of course my feet were the first target and I looked under the table and there were ants on the ground I tried not to make a big scene but we moved and I did have a word with the manager ( I was nice as can be )
8. A big spider got inside my car as me and my friend were driving to a shower and this spider was right above me and remind you I'm driving trying not to freak out or get in an accident we both were not wanting to kill it... Ok this one sounds a lil dramatic but I assure you it was scary.
9. Now the latest incident actually happened on Friday I was driving to work my commute is about 20 min all of the sudden ants start coming out of my dashboard all over on my air vents the steering wheel my cup holders,  I called Lance and started crying cuz they were getting on my pants. I had a long drive and couldn't really afford to be late or even pullover because I was on the freeway. If that wasn't bad enough I finally get to work and after it rains here these brown beetles come out, they covered the parking lot and curbs yes covered it was horrible! Lance came to my work switched cars with me and we still haven't figured out where they are coming from we did find them all over on both sides of the door at the bottom where the step up is. It took me awhile to recover from this one and I'm sorry to say I still have not drove or rode in the ant infested car.

I don't like bugs, Lance says that God is trying to drive this fear out of me but its really only causing more fear. It has made me more cautious of my surroundings and where I step. I do check under every table I sit at even if its a well-known restaurant and always take a quick scan of parking lots before I get out of the car. Some people might look at me like I'm a worry wort I like to think of it like I'm preparing myself.

Happy 4th of July

 "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness." -Declaration of Independence
So in honor of Independence day I would like to recite the Preamble of the Constitution which came after the Declaration of Independence:
"We the people of the United States in order to form a more perfect union established justice ensure domestic tranquility; provide for the common defense promote the general welfare and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America."
 Thank you God for our country's freedom and the laws that are set to protect us. Thank you for the soldiers and everyone that has taken part to serve this country but I pray for those who are still bound from the evil workings in and of this world, that they will come to know and have true freedom in You.
Happy Independence Day and God Bless